thoughts

The stress in my life right now is getting to a point where I know it's going to flatline and I'll become normal again. Or as normal as I'll ever be. In the past week upon returning home from Arizona, I've had to attend my brother's baptism/confirmation, start packing so that I can move into my parents' house for the summer (to save on money and to escape my roommate situation), begin working in the lab again and figure out what hours go into one project and what hours are poured into another project, and try to also have a social life as well. I felt so busy and overwhelmed that I cancelled all plans I had for last night just so I could sit by myself in my room.

But when I was eventually alone, I was actually really lonely. I thought I would relish my time sitting in my room (considering I'll be leaving it in a few short days) where I could watch whatever I wanted on Netflix and either write, draw, or just mull. Well, I might not want to mull considering that things I continuously mull over, which right now just make me heartsick. I discovered that I would rather be in the company of others doing any of those things. So even though being alone can, now and again, be rather peaceful and needed, I've found that lately it's better for me to be around people. Because I love people and think that they are all pretty great, for the most part.

Tonight was one of my best friend's bachelorette party, and although it was not as rowdy as some of them get, it was still rather fun. We ate delicious food, played fun games, and I brought "mocktails" (no alcohol allowed) like shirley temples and screwdrivers. All in all, it was a fun night. Tomorrow I'm going out to see The Hangover Part Two with both old friends and new friends. I'm also moving out a majority of my stuff tomorrow to (hopefully) storage and my parents' house. I'm currently stressing over whether I should give the guy I like a little inside joke gift before he leaves for the Philippines for the entire summer.

Basically I just have a really good (albeit anxiety-driven) life right now. And I should always remember that.

Summery things I'm excited for



swimming



sundresses every day



iced tea



watermelon



outdoor concert series



being outdoors



So excited. What I'm working on right now is making myself realize that being skinny will not solve all of my life problems. Though right now, social media and human pressure is certainly trying to tell me that it will.

[p.s. I stole all pictures in this post from weheartit.com]